It's... I want to say it's not but, well, obviously that isn't true. It's just. It's difficult is all.
[ And usually, that's where the conversation would end. That's where Rose would make a joke about her being difficult or something and deflect like she'd learned to. Keep her walls high and expectations low and everything would turn out fine.
But she knows Byleth deserves more than that from her so she wants to try. For him. For them. ]
For a long time, with Charlie, all that mattered was how good I was at my job. How good I was at fucking people into telling me things. How good I was at fucking him to keep him happy. And I guess I just... I ended up putting a lot of stock into, I don't know, being good at fucking people in general. So, when I feel like I'm not it's upsetting. Confusing.
I know there's more to me than that now. You and Seteth and Corrin and others... You've all helped me see that but, y'know, shit like this doesn't just disappear. If only it did.
cw: sexual trauma
[ And usually, that's where the conversation would end. That's where Rose would make a joke about her being difficult or something and deflect like she'd learned to. Keep her walls high and expectations low and everything would turn out fine.
But she knows Byleth deserves more than that from her so she wants to try. For him. For them. ]
For a long time, with Charlie, all that mattered was how good I was at my job. How good I was at fucking people into telling me things. How good I was at fucking him to keep him happy. And I guess I just... I ended up putting a lot of stock into, I don't know, being good at fucking people in general. So, when I feel like I'm not it's upsetting. Confusing.
I know there's more to me than that now. You and Seteth and Corrin and others... You've all helped me see that but, y'know, shit like this doesn't just disappear. If only it did.