I think probably the best thing would be to think about how you feel. It will probably take you some time to disentangle your emotions. Sometimes talking about it helps, or creating art of some kind.

You also must rely on the aid of your friends.

[ He gestures to himself, of course. ]

Helping makes me happy, so in allowing me to help, you are helping me. If that makes sense. Of course, not all at once but... it might help also, if you find a way to have a good cry.

I know it doesn't sound dignified but it's better out than in, you know?