[It's stupid to be nervous, he thinks to himself. It's just sex; he's had sex before. But that's just it, isn't it? He doesn't like that it can be impersonal, simply transactional. It's why he's asked Byleth, though. The closest thing he has to a friend in this godsforsaken place.
Besides, maybe it'll help some of the pressure weighing on his shoulders.
[ The door opens to Byleth, in a gingham apron with a little embroidered Lion in the center. He gives his usual, faint, almost sleepy looking smile as he steps aside. ]
Please, come in. Sit down.
[ He moves off to bring a tray of tea and biscuits as promised to the foyer table, setting it down and having a seat himself. ]
It's good to see you again. I never got to thank you properly...
[Byleth looks better than the last time they... what, met? Dreamt together? However one sorts out that kind of logic. Either way, he's improved, and that's good enough for Obsidian.
So he goes in at the invitation, then shakes his head.]
No need. Glad I was to be able to help you. I don't need anything more than that.
[He sits, looking over the tea and biscuits, a fine spread from his friend.]
If anything, I feel as though I'll owe you for the help I aim to ask.
[It's almost easier to summarize what he doesn't like, for however much intimacy is a difficult thing for him. However, Byleth has been patient and kind with him, and he has few doubts that he can relax with him.]
I... tis difficult for me to put it plainly into words. [And it's been awhile since he has been intimate.] Too rarely I have been with someone whose company I enjoyed that I could rightly relish it.
But I would want to take care of you. That most of all. So tell me what it is that you enjoy from your partners, and I will grant it gladly.
I admit... I'm much the same. I enjoy pleasing my partner. Knowing that I am doing well- that is what truly drives any kind of desire. Bringing someone else pleasure and happiness.
[ He knows that probably doesn't answer the question though. ]
Other than that, I enjoy novel sensations, but have a strong preference for intimacy. Romance, I guess you could say.
Is that so? ...Full glad I am to hear it, in truth.
[He could spare to admit this much, couldn't he? He's spent a bit of time with Byleth. Spent more than enough to dwell on too many matters. To share is... not typical. Still, if it could help them both--]
I could not be so casual with a partner in this way. I have no illusions of romantic love, but so long as it is someone I care about, then it is well.
I do not wish for it to feel like a transaction nor impersonal.
I couldn't agree more. [ Byleth lets a warmer smile lighten his face, comforted to know that he and Obsidian see eye to eye on this important matter of intimacy. ]
Even in the absence of the textbook romance, warmth and care need not be lacking. Especially between friends.
As long as we have that, then I will be very happy with whatever we do together.
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Besides, maybe it'll help some of the pressure weighing on his shoulders.
He arrives, giving a light knock to the door.]
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Please, come in. Sit down.
[ He moves off to bring a tray of tea and biscuits as promised to the foyer table, setting it down and having a seat himself. ]
It's good to see you again. I never got to thank you properly...
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So he goes in at the invitation, then shakes his head.]
No need. Glad I was to be able to help you. I don't need anything more than that.
[He sits, looking over the tea and biscuits, a fine spread from his friend.]
If anything, I feel as though I'll owe you for the help I aim to ask.
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You do not need to worry about formalities or things like that with me. Be earnest, and I shall do the same.
[ He takes a long, thoughtful sip from his tea. ]
Tell me what you enjoy.
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I... tis difficult for me to put it plainly into words. [And it's been awhile since he has been intimate.] Too rarely I have been with someone whose company I enjoyed that I could rightly relish it.
But I would want to take care of you. That most of all. So tell me what it is that you enjoy from your partners, and I will grant it gladly.
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[ He knows that probably doesn't answer the question though. ]
Other than that, I enjoy novel sensations, but have a strong preference for intimacy. Romance, I guess you could say.
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[He could spare to admit this much, couldn't he? He's spent a bit of time with Byleth. Spent more than enough to dwell on too many matters. To share is... not typical. Still, if it could help them both--]
I could not be so casual with a partner in this way. I have no illusions of romantic love, but so long as it is someone I care about, then it is well.
I do not wish for it to feel like a transaction nor impersonal.
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Even in the absence of the textbook romance, warmth and care need not be lacking. Especially between friends.
As long as we have that, then I will be very happy with whatever we do together.